When you can’t heal your anxiety

I say this often but healing is not linear. We all heal in different ways and some of us never heal at all. Since I started getting help for my anxiety I thought it would be easy. I thought I would take the medicine, practice the yoga, do the meditations, and exercise daily and I would be cured. WRONG! They are many people out there who have anxiety and do these things and are healed from their anxiety. I am not one of those people. If I could rate my anxiety from mild-high I would rate mine as a moderate to moderate high level. Simply put, I cannot out-run or out-yoga my anxiety. I have tried so many times getting off my medication because I knew it would go away if I just exercised everyday and ate healthy. IT DIDN’T. 

When I met my now psychiatrist, she said our number 1 goal is to get my anxiety in remission. That was the first time I had heard anxiety mentioned like any other chronic condition. IN REMISSION. I kind of giggled at her because my anxiety doesn’t go into remission. My anxiety is always there and that’s that. After working with her for a few months, playing with my meds (and emotions) I finally started to realize that my anxiety would never be healed but it was coming damn close. I think where I am going with all of this is that the sooner you start looking at your anxiety as any other chronic condition you may have, the better outlook you will have and the sooner you can start to heal (or get damn close).

Thanks for reading!

Heather